Thank you!!!

Thanks to all of you that have left comments and, most importantly, prayed and or sent to me good vibrations of healing, positivity, strength, courage, and LOVE! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

I truly love this raw food community! If you have any clue of what the raw food movement/LIFESTYLE is or are in the beginning stages of research and discovery; then you know or feel you're on to something HUGE!

I recently watched a video of a guy on you tube! (Courtesy of QWLIR, of course.) He was talking about how BIG this raw food thing is! "IT_IS_WAY_BIGGER_THAN_YOU_OR_ME" It was so funny the way he said it. (Not because he is from England either!) It was funny because I could so relate to what he was talking about!!!

Paraphrasing: If you think you can do this thing without slippin up, than you're in for a surprise! If you can, than more power to ya. If you can't no big deal because this raw food thing "IS_WAY_BIGGER_THAN_YOU_OR_ME" Don't beat yourself up! JUST_START_OVER!! There's no raw food police around that's going to arrest you for slippin! (LOL) JUST_START_OVER! Tomorrow is a new day and you can start fresh! The important thing to remember is to NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP!! and TO START OVER!!! No matter what!

Those of you who are doing and living the RAW_FOOD_LIFESTYLE, you are my heroes and my mentors! Thank you for blogging! Thank you for your words of inspiration and love!

Cheers to YOU and Cheers to US! May you have peace, love, and happiness in your life ALWAYS!

I'm slowly but surely transforming! It's an amazing journey! I love it!

Thanks again!

--Dougie (Rawesome) Fresh ;-)

I need help!!

If you believe in the power of prayer, please say a prayer for me! If you don't pray, just think about me, Doug, and send to me a vibration of strength, courage, and love! I believe I'm on the cusp of change and I need all the help I can get!

I've been praying and meditating a lot lately. Something inside told me to reach out and ask for help. Asking for help is one of the hardest things for me to do, but I know there's power in humility! I need help!

There! Sending this out to the universe with love and gratitude for you and everyone!!

THANK YOU!!!

I love yoga!

I haven't been to yoga for quite some time. I went to a class tonight and I'm so grateful for that! Yoga is such a great work out for the mind body and spirit! Just as we got started the instructor said to dedicate this practice to someone or something meaningful to you in your life! OMG, the first thing I thought about was my RAW food lifestyle! I felt a strong emotion from deep within arise! It was awesome. I'm going to try and hold onto that feeling and stay on the path!

My goal is to be a yoga instructor some day! (Just thought I'd put that out there to the Universe!)

I decided to start another fast, again. I'd like to create a little distance from food so when I start eating again I will appreciate RAW food mucho!

I took a picture of myself tonight in my boxers. It will be my BEFORE raw pic. I tried my hardest to give the Anthony pose from Raw Model! I think I came pretty close! LOL!!! If I could only develop his 6 pack, I'd be really stoked! We'll see! I'm working on it!

Speaking of Anthony, you gotta check out the interview with him that's posted on We Like It RAW! He's got a great story and it's really worth checking out.

Well, I made it over the hump day and I'm stoked and inspired. I'm also getting a little sleepy eyed.

Good night...

Ctrl+Alt+Del..Reboot

I love resetting myself, my expectations, and my desires!! Life is a such a trip. Especially when trying to stay RAW let alone fast for any particular amount of time!

Today is a very exciting day for me, besides being our 12 year wedding anniversary, I've decided (again) that today will be THE DAY I have my last cooked food and go 100% RAW!! YAHOO!! I'm so elated and pumped for me!! Yowza Baby!! (I know, I know, I've said this before, but this time is REALLY it!!) I've experimented enough over the last year, that I've realized I feel the best when I'm eating or drinking living foods! Seriously! I'm so looking forward to the rest of my life without cooked food! I'm ready to get off this awful roller coaster!

It seems fitting I had my last cooked food meal with my wife. My original intention was to have October 1st be my last cooked food meal, but since I blew that date, this date will be much much sweeter! I was tempted to tell her over dinner, but decided against it, as I didn't want to make too big of a deal! She knows I've been struggling with this issue for some time and has been very supportive! My hope and dream is that she will eventually follow my lead!

I've been reading a lot of inspiring blogs lately. I recently watched Kris Karr's documentary, Crazy Sexy Cancer! OMG, it was sooo good and sooo inspirational! Thank you for making this movie!!! FUCK canSer!! Fuck fucking canSer!! (I'm sorry, but I had to put that out there!) I'm so thankful I don't have it! I'm so thankful I have some knowledge about how to live and eat in a way that puts the odds of me not getting it in my favor. So many people are getting canSer, it's very scary!

Okay!! I'm ready for bed now! I didn't over do it tonight on the cooked food, so hopefully my hangover will be minimal!

Back on Track!!!

Ahhh...............I'm glad that's over! I've been on a cooked food eating spree! I think I've got it out of my system now! I'm ready to start feeling better! Starting a new!! Feels good to be back. I need to make some green juice this morning. I also need to do some reading and studying!

More later...

Sunday: OK...Green juice is made!! Yahoo!! Very bloated currently! So seriously looking forward to starting over. October 1st My cooked food sobriety date! Go for it Dougie! You know you can totally do it! You have the knowledge and will power to do a 30 day fast! Set your goal and go!

Monday morning: So glad it's Monday. It's another fresh start of a new week. Another chance to start over! Thank you for allowing me a chance to start over! I love my life. I love my life especially when I'm aligned with my values and ideals!

My sobriety date for cooked food will be October 1, 2007! I will take it one day at a time and will try not eat cooked food JUST FOR TODAY! I will also try my hardest not to forget how awful I've been feeling the last several days. OMG! It totally sucked. FUCK THAT!

It's funny (kind of) that I've been on this roller coaster ride with cooked food! Ever since I discovered fasting then raw food, I've been striving to reach a level of health and mental clarity that only few people know about! I WANT WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAVE! THEREFORE, I WILL DO WHAT YOU DO!!

I'm so happy to be fasting again and starting over. I'm tired of slipping however! I could have been that much further in my development, but I keep slipping! Oh Well!! Progress not perfection!

Well this day is about over with. Yeah! I remember being at the park today and thinking how lucky I am to be alive today! I felt really vibrant and happy! Now, I feel tired and sleepy! I'm about ready to call it a day, I just wanted to get this post out there!

Struggling....

Well, I made it 5 days!! I haven't done 5 days for quite some time!

Thanks to Anthony for leaving a comment! I appreciate reading comments as well. It helps to know someone else is watching/supporting. I really dig this communication medium!

Like I was saying I was able to FAST for 5 days! I had a weak moment because I ran out of juice and I was running on empty watching my daughters swim meet! I went to the grocery store to get them something to eat. I picked up some grapes and lunchables. I ate just a few grapes to help me out a little! CRAP!! My FAST was officially over. I'm such and addict to food! It didn't take me long to start thinking about what was next.

(The reason I didn't blog about breaking my FAST is that I have to be honest here and I didn't want to admit my weakness! I'm a work in progress baby!)

Oh well! It was good, but I feel disappointed in myself for not staying with it! BUT!!! I'm cautious not to beat myself up about it! I know what I need to do! I know ultimately where I want to be and end up! I know that a RAW food lifestyle is for me and I long to have the will and determination to get there. I'm also aware that I have a long deep rooted history with food and I'm working on the detachment!

I must also state that it's quite difficult to do this thing alone. Meaning my wife and kids are not down with the RAW foods lifestyle, yet! I know I must lead by example. If it were up to me I would have gotten rid of our pots and pans as well as the microwave a long time ago!

More later...

Fasting Starts today!!!

Yowza baby!! It's amazing what a good sweat does for the physical and mental part of me!! Thank you god for my stairmaster. I sware it's one of our better investments. Anyhooo....

I've committed to starting a FAST for at least 30 days from today! It will be my longest one to date. I did a 21 day fast in January of this year. My goal was to go at least 30 days but I talked myself out of it because of a social engagement!

I had a really, really deep sleep last night. OMG!! I was pretty tired last night, almost like I had eaten too much throughout the day! I'm looking forward to starting this Raw food lifestyle from a clean plate. I have a lot of goals and I will state them later. I need to head out to work and wanted to post this now before my mind starts telling me stuff like, "Why don't you start that FAST tomorrow!" FUCK THAT!! It's Friday baby and I feel like FASTING!! LOL

More later...

8:53pm I love how pumped up I am in the morning. I love that I make these bold commitments at that time! Good thing too--I got home around 8:30 and I noticed a pizza on the table. Crap! It was my favorite pizza from the local pizza shop. I looked inside. I shouldn't have done that! Oh man, oh man!! I'm writing now to take the power of the craving to eat some pizza. I know it would taste awesome! I know that I would have at least 4 or 5 pieces maybe more because I'm fucking hungry right now. Then I might want like a coke or to go with it! I would for sure crash not too long afterwards and I would feel bloated and depressed for not sticking to my commitment to stay raw and not to mention today is day 1 of my fasting adventure!

WHEWWW!!!!!!!!! I feel better already! My mind was totally playing with me! "It's Friday have some pizza. You can start over tomorrow!" Fuck that!

Intake:

• ~48oz of green juice
• 20 oz of fruit juice
• 48 0z of water (at least)
  

I'm almost too tired to write

I opted not to have a cup of coffee this morning. I think I had coffee the last 4 days/mornings in a row. I love the buzz and taste of coffee, but man I have a hard time "coming off" of it. I had to go out for a nap around 12:00pm today. I started yawning about 10:30am. I napped my whole lunch hour. I woke up at 1:05pm. I was good to go for the rest of the afternoon. I hate having to nap in the day time. It may happen again tomorrow, we'll see! My coffee consumption must be kept to a minimum.

Today I did not drink any juice. I had a banana at 10:00am. That's pretty early for me to get my digestion system fired up! I seemed to graze the whole day.

Intake:

• 4 bananas
• 1 small orange
• 3 very ripe plums
• 1000 ml of water
• tomato chips
  
• salsa soup ;-)
• handful of broccoli and cauliflower
• hummus to dip my veggies in
• 1 mango
• i found some dried bananas in my cooler which I polished off
  

I feel like I ate more stuff but I'm tired and my memory is not helping anymore!

Oh yeah, I was feeling a little low today. I didn't want to go to my business class! Hmmmm......I will attribute it to the caffeine withdrawal??

Good Sweat...

I had another great day yesterday! It all started with a good 20 minute sweat on the StairMaster! Yeah baby!

Had a great soccer practice with the girls! I love setting up new drills on the fly! It would be hard to explain the drill now, but I think it really helped and it gave them a good work out! There was not a lot of screaming and goofing off today, just a bunch of flushed little girls having fun and a good work out. The real fun was when the scrimmage started. I was going to work on throw-ins and the "element of surprise" but decided to play in the scrimmage with them and "show" them what I wanted out of them! I had such a fun time with the girls and they really really showed lots of improvement! It's a great feeling to bond with the girls through coaching! I love it!

Intake for Wednesday:

• 32 oz watermelon juice
• 32 oz of green juice
• 1500 ml of water
  
• 5 medium organic bananas
• 1 box of raspberries
• handful cauliflower and broccoli with hummus
• 1 nectarine
• handful of dates

Ahhh.........feeling good!

I did have a couple of cups of coffee this morning while in the parent teacher training! I enjoyed every ounce of it too!!

Up at 6:00amish. We had to be at a parent teacher conference at 7:30am. Then we had a parent training session for Hannah's class! This school really is an awesome school. I wish I was a kid again and going to this school!

Tooth cleaning at 11:00. My upper front right tooth was very sensitive to the cleaning. I hate that!

First sip of watermelon juice @ 2:00pm! Ahhh .......it was really refreshing. Now the question is; to eat or not to eat! I'm sure I'll be eating the 2 very ripe avocados we have sitting in the fruit bowl.

11:09pm
I'm feeling very good right now. Actually I'm a little sleepy eyed. I was just heading off to bed and forgot to post! I made it to a meeting tonight; twas a good one! I've noticed my spirit and energy has been elevated all day!

Intake today:

• 32 oz watermelon juice
• 32 oz of green juice
• 1000 ml of water ( i need to increase this number a bunch)
• 2 avocados mixed with some home made salsa
• handful of tomato chips (dehydrated tomato paste with basil and garlic added)
• handful of cauliflower
• handful of broccoli
• some cantelope
• 500ml of green smoothie
  

Yes, I've been feeling pretty light on my toes today. Overall had a pretty good day! Thank you GOD!!

Today is the first day of the rest of my life!

Today I start posting the truth about my addictions to cooked food! It is also the day I get completely honest with myself! I am finally ready to start documenting my destructive feelings for cooked food and my personal goals to transform my life once and for all.

The main GOAL of this blog is to allow me to be completely honest! So many times I've made the commitment to stop eating cooked foods and go 100% RAW only to falter and succumb to my emotional attachments to my "Favorite" foods! FUCK COOKED FOOD!!! It's so over fucking rated! I'm so ready to change my way life!

The idea to blog came to me this morning after a dream! Specifically, tell one person whom I have a lot of respect and admiration for. My goal is to tell him about my blog and the commitment I made to myself. Let him know where blog is located, if he's curious, and start posting. Make commitments! Commit! Then, post about what's going on! HONESTLY!! NO MATTER WHAT!!

I can honestly say (no pun intended) that I'm way apprehensive about doing this! It's like I'm giving up my security blanket: to go back to my cooked foods when the craving appears!

Oh well! I think it's a great idea! I'm so stoked for myself! I've got lots of goals to go after and a limited amount of time to get after them! So I'm going to stop procrastinating and start fulfilling my dreams and desires.

Intake today:

• 32oz of watermelon juice
  
• 32oz of green juice
• 1 avacodo diced, 2 medium tomatoes diced and mixed with my fresh salsa I made yesterday--sprinkled with a little sea salt--yummy
• 2 bananas
• handful of grapes

Ok, it's bedtime: 10:36pm

Good night!